pads

I've had a lot of things happening with my apartment (pad 1), everything in flux (updates, someday).

THEN I found this (pad 2) in my mailbox.

A lot of why's, and how's, and a flood of emotion.  Like "I wish I really was getting all these packages", and "I'm not", and "how can I use this for a good experiment/joke/something".
I can tell you this.  There's no good jokes (they'd all be mean-ish/disappointing), and it has way way less value than say, a blank script pad (not that I'd do that).

Any ideas?